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Audrey Hale, the transgender shooter who killed three adults and three children at a Christian school in Tennessee last spring, detailed her “imaginary penis” in a newly-revealed screed.

“My penis exists in my head. I swear to god I’m a male,” Hale, who had started to go by Aiden at the time of the shooting, wrote on one page in their diary, four dozen pages of which were obtained by the Tennessee Star.

The entry also described Hales’ agonizing experience as a trans man and included at least one drawing, referencing Hale’s desire to have sex with women.

Hale described being raised as a girl as “torture,” adding they feared being “being called a dyke or a f—-t” during high school, the outlet reported.

Hale learned more about trans people during college, and felt like they finally found the solution to their discontent.

“I finally found the answer – that changing one’s gender is possible,” Hale explained in one entry.

Hale’s mother, however, seemed opposed to the idea.

“What she believes, how she grew up, conservatively, and that LGBTQ — especially transgender — was an enigma, nearly non-existent,” Hale wrote.

“I hate parental views; how my mom sees me as a daughter — and she’d not bear to want to lose that daughter because a son would be the death of Audrey,” they added.

They continued to express their frustration at their parents’ refusal to support their transition, and wrote about wishing they had access to puberty blockers.

“I’d kill to have those resources; 2007 was the birth of puberty blockers and a newfound discovery for treatment of non-conforming transgender children,” Hale lamented. “I was in the 6th grade, puberty already hit me.”

On another page, Hale detailed how they played out their fantasies about having sex as a man using stuffed toys.

“I’d kill to have those resources; 2007 was the birth of puberty blockers and a newfound discovery for treatment of non-conforming transgender children,” Hale lamented. “I was in the 6th grade, puberty already hit me.”

“I can pretend to be them [and] do the things boys do [and] experience my boy self as Tony,” they wrote, referring to a “stuffed boy doll” that “is like the boy I am in another form.”

At one point, Hale described becoming so enthralled in their fantasies that they lost track of time and missed a gym session,

“God, I am such a pervert.” Hale wrote. “I waste too much time in my fantasies.”

Hale, 28, wrote the self-hating entry just 16 days before March 27, 2023, when they shot through the front doors of the Convent School and killed three 9-year-olds and three adults.

The rampage ended in a hail of bullets, with Hale gunned down by Metropolitan Nashville Police Department officers as they shot out of a window at the school.

In the year since the shooting, the families of the victims have pleaded with the courts not to release Hale’s trove of writings, which included a suicide note and at least 20 journals.

“I will not stand by to allow these shooter’s writings be published in any way. This mass murderer doesn’t get to speak from the grave,” Erin Kinney, whose 9-year-old son William was killed in the shooting, wrote last month.